turn over new leaf

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and
make a new ending - Maria Robinson

Someone wise once said that life can either be accepted or changed. If it is not accepted, it must be changed. If it cannot be changed, then it must be accepted. Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever. So...today let's talk about turning over a new leaf. Basically, we begin living like everyone else but with standards of our own. Work,study, love,etc- living live the way you wanted. I believe that nobody is forced to do something / anything - the actions taken by them are something decided by them. The choices are always ours to make. God gave us brains for a purpose. So, excuses like wrong upbringing and friend's influence for making wrong choices in life are secondary. Realization about making worthy the life granted by God comes in different stages of life. Some may not bother at all. But what ever it is, nobody can be a saint overnight and nobody expects them to be either. The important thing is we know what we really want and we've decided what to do with our life. It may effect the lifestyle, the people @ friends around and other factors in your life. Being prepared may not be essential but learning to adapt to the changes and taking things one at a time will surely help. For some it might even mean losing friends or dear ones. We must understand that turning over a new leaf does not mean drastic changes but rather learning, adapting and transforming into being someone better. Success may not be assured. It is all in your choice, faith and purpose. For every decision we make, we are accountable. Just be who you are and try to live the life worthy of your calling. Be completely humble and make efforts. Alls well ends well.

Be Blessed.

Sincerely Yours...

Sincerity is an openness of heart; we find it in very few people; what we usually see is only an artful dissimulation to win the confidence of others.

LA ROCHEFOUCAULD, Reflections

Being a fanatic fan of korean serials, I was watching '49 days' recently and it led me to write about this topic. In short, the serial was about a soul seeking 3 drops of pure tear from three people who truly love her apart from her family within 49 days. She initially thinks that it will be an easy task since she has many loving friends around her, alas hurtfully she realizes it is not as easy as it seems. So...I started wondering..in life are we ever sincere to ourselves or others ? When are we sincere ?

Anton Chehkov once wrote there should be more sincerity and heart in human relations, more silence and simplicity in our interactions. Wise words indeed. How true ! Sincerity is generally understood to be truth in one's word and actiont.By ‘sincere’ we understand that a person acts according to his/her conscience. There is a test for sincerity and its level of attainments. One who has achieved mental sincerity will not complain about anything. One who has achieved sincerity at the physical level will not meet with failures of any kind in his work.

Rather than being sincere many habitually protect themselves by presenting a mask to the world instead of their true selves. They feel compelled to adopt some carefully constructed persona in place of expressing their real heart, even with their closest friends and intimates. Why? Are we ever sincere in any relationship ? It still troubles me to find that many will answer no - which led me to the next question...why is hard ?

If you can't be sincere to the one you love or your friend...why be in that relationship first of all ? Just putting up a fake connotation with another person does not only hurt them but you as well. If you can't tolerate or don't like to be with a person...wouldn't it be better that you be sincere and accept the fact. Reasons like white lies and taking care of ones' feeling is merely lame excuses to escape. Why torture others and yourself in the process ? It'd be easier to just to be true. But then again..the choice is not mine to make...each individuals decides what is good for them. Hence...the choice is theirs to make.

Be rude when you’re angry, laugh when something is funny, and answer when you’re asked.

-Chekhov

a quote i love

September is a month i dun fancy anymore..just too many heartache & bad memories..

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Paulo Coelho once said if pain must come, may it come quickly. because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best possible. if we have to make a choice, make it now. waiting is painful. forgetting is painful. but not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering."

and sometimes you know and life is not the same anymore....

To Err Is Human....To Forgive Divine

“The stupid neither forgive nor forget;

the naive forgive and forget;

the wise forgive but do not forget.”

~Thomas S. Szasz ~

Well...i do not know if i can forgive anyone...maybe i can. But i can never seem to forget and this is an habit of mine. I will stay as far as i acn from them after knowing the truth. That's just me. I dun intend to run away from anything it's just that i prefer not to repeat my mistakes again and you can call it cautious escape plan. I am no saint, angel or do gooder...but it's just me. I've trained myself to be so after countless encounters with such people. Hmm...why am I that dumb to repeat my mistakes so many times... God knows ! To err is human...i guess i am a normal human then...maybe now i ought to be divine & forgive. I can. i am not cruel. But to forget will be very difficult....

if only....

Have u ever told someone something precious - (say a secret or smthg close to your heart) only to regret when you find out that person is not the person you thought they were....

what do you do ?

Ever had a constant fear that this person is/has/or might tell others about it. You know how vulnarable we tend to be when we are faced with something heartwrecking...and having this person claiming to be your friend... you pour your heart out...without realizing anythg. My mistake - trust..dun trust anyone easily. i learned it the hardest way possible. Cos u see...only as time passess you will eventually come to know about people... so wait...dun trust someone easily.

What should the solution be ? Shd i just forget it and leave it to God ? Hmm..maybe....I am dumbfounded...blur & worried :(

Better to be known as a sinner than a hypocrite...

A wise man said that a hypocrite despises those whom he/she deceives, but has no respect for themself. He/She would make a dupe of themself too, if they could. With so many going around i couldn't refrain myself from saying something here (instead of @ the person's face)... Call me coward but i just dun think it's worth it.

I dun get it. How can someone perfectly talk nicely in front of you ...say nice things ...ask this & that ....and behind your back...kabooom....diarrhoea of verbal curses...contrast to the praises uttered. I dunno...i really dunno how they can do it. After knowing their true colour I begun to doubt their sincerity and preferred to stay away from such person.

Many told me...advices indeed ... hey, just pretend nothing happen...act normal...The thing is I can't. Everytime i look at their faces ...the truth slaps right across...giving me wake up calls...making me wonder if their friendship is worth it.

My last resort.. stay away...

Be as you are...

I got this from a friend...happy reading ;)

Maharshi read out from the tamil version of Yoga Vasishta, the story of Deerga Tapasi who has two sons, Punya and Papa. After the death of the parents the younger one mourned the loss and the elder brother consoled him as follows: "Why do you mourn the loss of our parents? I shall tell you where they are; they are only within ourselves and are ourselves. For the life-current has passed through innumerable incarnations, births and deaths, pleasures and pains etc., just as the water current in a river flows over rocks, pits, sands, elevations and depressions on its way, but still the current is unaffected. Again the pleasures and pains, births and deaths, are like undulations on the surface of seeming water in the mirage of the ego.The only reality is the Self from where the ego appears, and runs through thoughts which manifest themselves as the universe and in which the mothers and fathers, friends and relatives appear and disappear, They are nothing but manifestations of the Self so that one's parents are not outside the Self. So there is no reason to mourn. Learn it, realise it and be happy." The above is also liberation from the face of duality. The path to liberation is also the path to acknowledge and be as you are (as liberated).

"Within ourselves and are ourselves". If everyone acts to this fact, do you think there would be war in this world, apart from other individualisticness?There wont be any. There wont be even single ego rise to discussion, no argument, no selfishness, not even ownership of the worst creation - money!

Credit to : DK http://jupiterflare.blogspot.com/

Change s Inevitable

In a few weeks time ... my time here will end. It is so unbelieveable that it's goin to be a year already and we would be finishing soon. I was sitting in class and looking at the same batch of people who walked in in the first class. Hmm...i sense changes. Some remain loyal to their friends, some sits with the same person from day one, some who fell in and out of love, some who realized who's true and who's not...and some who became more 'kiasu' than ever.

Change = Inevitable. Everything or everyone is bound for change at some point of time. Good or bad, time decides..self decides. The thing is we have the choices of making those decisions to change. After a year here...what have i learnt ? Plenty - Knowledge. People. Experience. Being in service for 10 years smthg precious i learnt is - in working life u need both knowledge as well as experience. A blend of both will teach and give the answers to many questions along the way of life. Many feel that with degrees, masters or Phd they had enough but trust me...nothing is easy. Experience teaches a man things he never knew. Be humble. Ask. Learn. Don't underestimate anyone. You can never know where the answers are. Humility is the best policy. It will never hurt your ego. So...I quote Gandhi ji... be the change you wish to see...

being moral @ being happy ?

Today my professor said something that made me thinking - "being moral is not neccessarily being happy ". Of course we were talking about ethics then but it really had me evaluate some things recently i encountered. I can choose to be moral and decisions i made might not make me happy. I was blogging about 'fake friends' we meet along the walk of life...and a dear friend asked "why u choose to be the way you are". My reply - I respect & care for all my friends but... I hate friends who pretend to be nice in front of me and at the same time bad mouth me behind my back. By the way, is that a 'friend' (in the first place) ? People change over time...i get it but try not to hurt others along the way. Be who you want to be... do what you want to do... but make sure it does not break the respect, heart, trust or love others have towards you. Some people are ego, some lie, some hide ... without knowing the truth might get out and it hurt others...especially friends.

When i choose my own path and decide to be silent...i realized i may make my decisions based on my moral obligations...and it can cause my happiness but failing to do so may harm my principle. If they are your true friend, they will never fake. So i guess sir was right ... bbeing moral is not neccessarily being happy ; )

Sharing knowledge is not about giving people something, or getting something from them. That is only valid for information sharing. Sharing knowledge occurs when people are genuinely interested in helping one another develop new capacities for action; it is about creating learning processes. We seem to gain wisdom more readily through our failures than through our successes. We always think of failure as the antithesis of success, but it isn't. Success often lies just the other side of failure.

Let us see what you get by hiding all the knowled ge you gain ...shall we ? God is great, remember that.

As for you ppl who call yourselves FRIENDS...but dun even know what it means...here smthg for you :-

False friendship, like the ivy, decays and ruins the walls it embraces...so Stay Away!

e.x.a.m.s

It's just the exams or the time i don't know...but i see many being selfish during this time. Grow up people. Share your knowledge. U ain't gonna lose anything. Stop being so selfish ! To Basma....thanx a zillion for being an angel !

God Bless ; )

24.02.1951.... missing you ...pa

:'(

missing my dad...

When I was a little girl,

I can still remember our happy moments we shared together.
You're my mentor, you thought me a lot of things in life, moral values,
Respect for elders, things that is useful to our everyday life.
As a Dad, you showed me of the how, the why, and the where,
No matter what has come about; you were always there.

That was September 2004 when I heard the news.
The doctor said you have cancer and there's nothing they could do.
After I heard that, my world starts to shiver.
My heart broke everytime I saw you on the bed
3 weeks later, you've left us all.

That was so painful and the hardest thing to accept,
for a grieving daughter that I am.
Years may come and go,
but your memory will never be erased.
I once knew a man, who gave love at his best,
And no one can ever take your place.

I miss you so much DAD!