Question—what do you do if you found someone way out of your league, different and one of the few guys you had respect for. Someone you laughed with and looked forward to seeing every day. Someone who gave you gave a chance and let down your guard. Then you tend to tricked yourself into having hope, when you so clearly know you shouldn’t have had any. You freak out. You realize how much it was screwing you up and yet you couldn’t do a thing about it. That thing called LOVE.
Here i am talking about love again. Maybe because I’ve dealt with it in virtually every aspect of my life or because the similarities seem to come up in some way or another. All i know right now is that I am still growing since then.
Trying to let everything go and moving on with life, avoiding any brush with the past, avoiding any encounter that would change the way things were. Believing that it’s time to move on and not get entangled in anything anymore especially love. Then there you were—came out of nowhere, constantly on the mind, it seems, because tiny little things always trigger the memory. Attempts to push it away, instead of dealing with it failed. Anyone can tell what you're feeling. I know things will never be the same between us. Maybe thy should have dealt with it better than I did. But i was also thinking is this God’s way of showing me love exists where you least expect it. I don't know what goes further than here yet i know there is no possible future in it.
What does love mean ? Just a companion or something unexplainable ? Even being in a love, doesn't mean it's wrong to love. Loving is a process like growing up, it progresses. We grow up understanding more and being more arouse with surroundings. As we grow older, love becomes more cliche and takes the form of simply almost anything - from holding hands to kissing to sexual.Love also hurts because it can't always just be love, other things get involved. When you're in love you become vulnerable and you let yourself trust that other person, when you are exposed you are hurt more easily. You are scared to lose what means most to you, and if you do ever lose it you lose a part of yourself with it. Not only that but you are afraid to hurt the ones you love, their pain is yours and when you're the one who has caused it is far worse. Guilt eats you up.
Here i am talking about love again. Maybe because I’ve dealt with it in virtually every aspect of my life or because the similarities seem to come up in some way or another. All i know right now is that I am still growing since then.
Trying to let everything go and moving on with life, avoiding any brush with the past, avoiding any encounter that would change the way things were. Believing that it’s time to move on and not get entangled in anything anymore especially love. Then there you were—came out of nowhere, constantly on the mind, it seems, because tiny little things always trigger the memory. Attempts to push it away, instead of dealing with it failed. Anyone can tell what you're feeling. I know things will never be the same between us. Maybe thy should have dealt with it better than I did. But i was also thinking is this God’s way of showing me love exists where you least expect it. I don't know what goes further than here yet i know there is no possible future in it.
What does love mean ? Just a companion or something unexplainable ? Even being in a love, doesn't mean it's wrong to love. Loving is a process like growing up, it progresses. We grow up understanding more and being more arouse with surroundings. As we grow older, love becomes more cliche and takes the form of simply almost anything - from holding hands to kissing to sexual.Love also hurts because it can't always just be love, other things get involved. When you're in love you become vulnerable and you let yourself trust that other person, when you are exposed you are hurt more easily. You are scared to lose what means most to you, and if you do ever lose it you lose a part of yourself with it. Not only that but you are afraid to hurt the ones you love, their pain is yours and when you're the one who has caused it is far worse. Guilt eats you up.
So..again, the choice is always yours to make. To love or not to love. It is hard when you know that there is no future for you with the man you love. But then again...who am i to decide. Fate is not for me to determine but God. As much as it hurts...dun give up if you really love the person. Because the most difficult thing to explain in life is the simplest truth called love.
