Happy ~ Leona Lewis

Someone once told me

That you have to choose

What you win or lose

You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances

You might feel the pain

Don’t you love in vain

Cause love wont set you free

I could stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me

So what if I break down

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don’t care about other pain in front of me

Cause I’m just tryna be happy, yeah

Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly

Just can’t let it go

Just tryna play my roll

Slowly disappear, oooh

Well all these tears

They feel like they’re the same

Just different faces, different names

Get me outta here

Well I can stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

Pass me by

So any turns that i cant see

I'll count a stranger on this road

But don’t say victim

Don’t say anything

Song : Happy

Singer : Leona Lewis

why love at all if it hurts?

Question—what do you do if you found someone way out of your league, different and one of the few guys you had respect for. Someone you laughed with and looked forward to seeing every day. Someone who gave you gave a chance and let down your guard. Then you tend to tricked yourself into having hope, when you so clearly know you shouldn’t have had any. You freak out. You realize how much it was screwing you up and yet you couldn’t do a thing about it. That thing called LOVE.

Here i am talking about love again. Maybe because I’ve dealt with it in virtually every aspect of my life or because the similarities seem to come up in some way or another. All i know right now is that I am still growing since then.
Trying to let everything go and moving on with life, avoiding any brush with the past, avoiding any encounter that would change the way things were. Believing that it’s time to move on and not get entangled in anything anymore especially love. Then there you were—came out of nowhere, constantly on the mind, it seems, because tiny little things always trigger the memory. Attempts to push it away, instead of dealing with it failed. Anyone can tell what you're feeling. I know things will never be the same between us. Maybe thy should have dealt with it better than I did. But i was also thinking is this God’s way of showing me love exists where you least expect it. I don't know what goes further than here yet i know there is no possible future in it.

What does love mean ? Just a companion or something unexplainable ? Even being in a love, doesn't mean it's wrong to love. Loving is a process like growing up, it progresses. We grow up understanding more and being more arouse with surroundings. As we grow older, love becomes more cliche and takes the form of simply almost anything - from holding hands to kissing to sexual.Love also hurts because it can't always just be love, other things get involved. When you're in love you become vulnerable and you let yourself trust that other person, when you are exposed you are hurt more easily. You are scared to lose what means most to you, and if you do ever lose it you lose a part of yourself with it. Not only that but you are afraid to hurt the ones you love, their pain is yours and when you're the one who has caused it is far worse. Guilt eats you up.

So..again, the choice is always yours to make. To love or not to love. It is hard when you know that there is no future for you with the man you love. But then again...who am i to decide. Fate is not for me to determine but God. As much as it hurts...dun give up if you really love the person. Because the most difficult thing to explain in life is the simplest truth called love.

The Symbol of Love & Devotion

“I will forever wear this ring as a sign of my commitment and the desire of my heart”

If Mangalsutra (Thaali or Thirumangalyam), 'the sacred marriage-time pendant’ symbolizes a married woman, a ring worn by a man is a visible sign of the vows that he is belong to someone and that someone belongs to him.Ring exchanging ceremony is an important celebration affair and it holds a lot of meaning in the Indian wedding traditions. This is a symbolic acceptance of the relationship between a woman and a man to validate the wedding vow.

According to the ancient Indian epic, Ramayana, it describes a love story between Rama, an ancient King, and Sita, who is abducted by Ravana, the King of Ceylon. The ring of Rama is the most precious evidence for Sita given to Hanuman by Rama and has a great importance in the course of Ramayana. This indicates the ancient Indian custom of exchanging rings in marriage. This is the ring prepared by Sita in her kingdom Mithila and she herself put it on Rama’s finger during their marriage. When Hanuman gives this ring to Sita, she saw Rama in that ring and bathed the ring with her tears, kissed the ring, feeling Rama in it, and entered into higher states of consciousness.Though Hanuman offered to Sita that he could carry Sita over his shoulders and takes her to Rama, however, Sita refuses, “My son, you are a brahmachari and I am pativrata, who has taken the vow not to touch any man other than my Lord, Rama; therefore, I will wait until Sri Rama comes and destroys the demon. Will you kindly convey my heart’s of love that I do not think or dream of any other than Rama”.

This signifies the importance of exchanging rings as a token of love and devotion between the couple. Circle in its nature, the ring has no beginning and no ending, which symbolizes the love between them, will never deteriorate. Traditionally, the rings are made of gold in order to represent a long married life; since it is long-lasting and unaffected by the passage of time, it is considered a suitable material for everyday wear as well as a metaphor for the relationship. It is believed that the ring finger of the hand has a vein leading directly to the heart. Therefore the groom wears the ring on his ring finger of his right hand and the bride wears hers on the ring finger of her left hand in order to form a complete heart. Traditionally, most Malaysian Indian couples emphasize the important of engagement that takes place before the wedding. The families ask the gods for blessings, the groom's family welcomes the bride into the family; rings and garlands are exchanged between the couple to welcome each other into their lives. The groom's family gives a verbal promise of marriage and feeds crystalline sugar to the girl's family to confirm engagement. It also represents a formal agreement to future marriage.

Although memories last a lifetime, photographs are the only true way to look back and reflect on your engagement day. When the bride looks at that photograph in her album she will be thrilled back in time to that intense personal connection of her wedding ring that is slipped on her finger by her beloved fiancé.

MyFoto Studio always looks into the lavish detail plus the vibrant and harmony colors that all together produce a spectacular photo where art and reality coincide.Our experienced professional photographers take each and every engagement assignment close to heart and make effort to capture the anticipatable moments during the ring exchanging ceremony. We believe, by doing so, we will ensure that we are standing in the right place, at the right time to get the right shot.We capture the timeless moments - not just the scene but the love, the happiness and the emotion.

Sincerely,

Deepak K Menon

Playmaker, Attacking Midfielder

MyFoto Studio

111-1, Jalan Sultan Abdul Samad, off Jalan Tun Sambanthan, 50470, Kuala Lumpur, MALAYSIA

*thank you...Mr Deepak for an insightful article...much appreciated !

why....

Victor M. Garcia Jr. once said love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts.

So...came the question to me...why we love that someone so much even it hurts and why are we willing to love when we know for real that it's gonna crush us into pieces.Why do we invest emotion if we just get hurt in end? For me, because that's what love or relationship is all about. You give and you take or better yet, you give without expecting anything in return. Somehow, it all comes back to you when you least expect it. I'm not a martyr, but i'd rather be the one getting hurt than hurting other people.

In real life - no one is perfect. We have our flaws. Patience, tolerance, understanding = Love. Now people...love is not just about feeling happy to ourselves. It also about giving with all your heart. Symphaty, kindness - that is love too. Making others happy that brings joy into our lives - that is another act of love. Life is not a movie, much to my dismay. You don’t always meet your soul-mate dancing in the rain or on the observation deck of the Empire State Building.Sometimes it’s hard to love someone because you’re so afraid of losing them.

Some people struggle their entire lives with, being in love with someone you cant seem to be with. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing, you feel as though this life is worth living. And when you lose it, its unreal. Its a pain i cant describe. Every muscle in the body tenses and the heart pounds so hard it feels like it will kill us. The thing you learn the most is that this pain proves that the heart and felt a happiness i may never feel again.You now know from the suffering that the time period in which it did feel this happiness was worth it. It's a feeling you wouldnt trade for anything.

So...you see there is no real conclusion to this, because it's undescribable. I do know, that the pain ...the feeling of hopelessness only shows that you fell in love. And every ounce of faith in you, is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness. You will always have hope.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

-Bob Marley

I realised that I love you. And you said you love me, and you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didn't realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart.Now I know. You didn't find the key. You broke into my heart, and I let you.

Just don't break my heart.

I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It's not a box that holds you in. I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I love you. It's not to make you change. I love you. It's not even to make you love me. I love you. It's as pure and simple as that.

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.

~Mother Teresa~

t.a.t.t.o.o

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later,

I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do ohhhhh
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

~JorDiN SpaRks~

~just~

Love's really full of inconsistencies

We get hurt yet there are things we miss

It makes us happy but also makes us cry

It's a reason to live yet a reason to die

Sometimes it's true but sometimes full of lies

There's trust but we still ask questions with WHYs

We want to forget but still we remember

We want to close our doors but here comes another

We say we're strong though we feel weak

We say we're fine but hey! we look sick

In every teardrop there comes a smile

Forgetting the heartache even just for a while

Sometimes we dream just to be with the person we love

We oftenly say that they're the only things we have

They serve as the world we consider a paradise

They're making us feel the intimacy not seen by the eyes

Lies and denials, sorrows and pain

Aside from the sweetness underneath the falling rain

Broken hearts, teardrops and shattered dreams

Upon reading between your lies, these are the hidden scenes....

September...

It's September. The month. It has been 5 years dad passed. If you ask me if i could finally accept the fact...my answer stays the same. I know he's not here wit us but getting over and accepting the fact is still not something i am capable of doing. I know he'll always be apart of me...but it hurts everytime i think he's gone. It'll be like we went for awhile without seeing each other. Recently we faced another bad news in my family...and with much courage and strength we fought it & overcame all obstacles. With God's blessing...everything is well now. Now..thinking about it...i felt we were blessed.I believe if we have the faith and confident...we can overcome anything - also with the support of our loved ones. Mom - u showed me the meaning of strength. Sis...the epitome of patience and my confidence.

Never Forgotten

Always Loved

I miss you Dad...

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately,

love truly laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in it's bind, but in it's bond.So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

sad symphony...by e.s.m.e.e d.e.n.t.e.r.s

Did anybody hear that

There’s a string that just broken my heart

I can feel it and the sound of it tears me apart

Play it again

Cause I ...don't recognize this song anymore

Can you make it sound like it did before?

It's the same old melody

And I cant stand what you do to me

Why you keep strumbling on the strings of my heart

It beats like asymphony

But you stole that away from me

I should've known it right from the start

Oh baby

All I know is

I don't wanna hurt no more

All I know is this song needs a different chorus

Cause theres so many times that

I feel like we’ve been hit before

I stay crying when you walk out the door

I hear a sad, sad symphony

A sad, sad symphony

Its like a sad, sad symphony

I hear a sad, sad symphony

Somebody save me

Cause im surrounded by all of these sounds

Its driving me crazy

Cause you're playing me way too loud

All I hear is noise

Now I cant hear my own voice

Now I, I didn't wanna tell you so

But you're bringing me down

Bringing me down

Its the same old melody

And I cant stand what you do to me

Why you keep strumbling on the strings of my heart

It beats like a symphony

But you stole that away from me

I should've known it right from the start

Oh baby

The song in my head's playing everywhere I go

It's taking the beat from my heart

I wanna hear the outcome

But I guess we're stuck

Cause I already know this part

And it seems we just cant get past the start

~Esmee Denters~

Outta here...

Get me outta here

‘Cuz my eyes are burning

From these silly tears

That you brought when you show me you don’t really care

And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Right now

It’s so amazing

how you have so many faces

And you are not that person I thought

that I had fell so deep in love with

You changed up your makeup your DNA

I can’t recognize you’re a stranger to me

I feel so betrayed what a waste of my heart

Get me outta here

‘Cuz my eyes are burning

From these silly tears

That you brought when you show me you don’t really care

And you never loved me, someone get me outta this place

Right now

My body’s trembling

it’s so damn hard

To pick this feeling,

your heart is so cold and now I’m freezing

Wish you could feel the pain baby I will embrace it

Yeah x 3

1,2,3,4

Right now, right now, right now

Some get me outta this place

Right now, right now, right now

Some get me outta this place

Get me outta here

~Esmee Denters~

* tis Dutch chic rockz !!! Love tis song !

Hush...hush...

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs

I never needed pain,

I never needed strength

My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements

I never needed you to question what I spent

I never ask for help,

I take care of myself,

I don’t know why you think you’ve got a hold on me

And it’s a little late for conversations

There isn’t anything for you to say

And my eye’s hurt, hand’s shiver,

So look at me and listen to me because

I don’t want too, stay another minute

I don’t want you, to say a single word

Hush, hush, hush, hush

There is no other way,

I get the final say

because,

I don’t want too,

do this any longer

I don’t want you,

there’s nothing left to say

Hush, hush, hush, hush

I’ve already spoken,

our love is broken

Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how I act to what I say

I never needed words

I never needed hurts

I never needed you to be there everyday

I’m sorry for the way I let go

From everything I wanted when you came along

But I’m never beaten, broken not defeated

I know next to you is not where I belong

~Pussycat Dolls~

What I have with him is worth it.

It is worth every lonely night,
every tear I cry from missing him,
and the pain I feel from not having him close.
It is worth it because he is my one and only.
When I picture myself years from now, I see only him.
No matter how painful distance can be,
not having him in my life would be worse

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for
some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad
that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.

...

“Waiting is painful. But not knowing what to do is the worse kind of suffering.” ~Paulo Coelho

Hinder – Without You

I just wanna be alone tonight

I just wanna take a little breather

Cause lately all we do is fight

And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed

You’ve been acting so strange

And its taking its toll on me

Its safe to say that

I’m ready to let you leave

Without you,

I live it up a little more everyday

Without you,

I’m seein myself so differently

I didn’t wanna believe it then

But it all worked out in the end

When I watched you walk away

Well I never thought id sayI’m fine

Without you

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough

And you said that you were so much better

We have done a lot of growing up

We were never meant to be together
Cause something changed, you were acting so strange

And it’s taken its toll on me

It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without youI

I just wanna be alone tonight,

I just wanna take a little breather

* just heard tis song....and the the video...wow..NICE !

“You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story"

Flaws & All...

i first heard Beyonce Knowles render this song on the Ellen DeGeneres Show. It was Ellen's favourite song...and listening to BK singing it with such emotions...and tears flowing her eyes...was beautiful...

I'm a train reck in tha morning
I'm a bitch in tha afternoon
Every now n then when I'm horny
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in everyway
And all the pieces arent even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I need

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
and that's why I love you

~Beyonce Knowles~

Lucky is a girl who's got such a guy in her life....

As the seconds pass...

We look back...

Of what our lives have held...

As the minutes pass...

We see what fell through the cracks...

Parts of our lives we withheld...

As the hours pass...

We think of what we learned...

What we have taught...

What we have forgot...

As the days pass...

We wish a lot could be returned...

We wish we would of never fought...

As your life passes...

You stand proud...

You did well... Live on...

to all my friends...

When the sun shines,

we’ll shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

Said I'll always be a friend

Took an oath I'm stick it out till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever

Know that we'll still have each other

You can stand under my umbrella

Rihana - Umbrella

a quote...

You fall in love with personality but you live with character.

u can...

You can either hold yourself up to the unrealistic standards of others,

or ignore them and

concentrate on being happy with yourself as you are

~Jeph Jacques

Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard...

Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp on to anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as we all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so.You are responsible for your life. You can't keep blaming somebody else for your dysfunction. To be able to move on, one has to learn to forgive not only the person (or people) who have done one wrong but also oneself. Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power. Like Pat Riley said "courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear"

......

Be just, and fear not.

Let all the ends thou aim'st at be thy country's,

Thy God's and truth's.

~William Shakespeare~

24.02.1951

Every year,

on your birthday,

I think about how glad I am

that i was born,

how thankful I am

to have had you in my life.

Every year is another year

I miss you ...pa

& I love you very much....

Happy Birthday Pa!

Wise words of Wiesel

Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing. Peace is our gift to each other. Words can sometimes, in moments of grace, attain the quality of deeds.

~Elizer Wiesel~

when trust is broken

What ever the relationship... friendship, family, love...it need TRUST. Trust is the foundation of all relationships. Without that security, there is no faith. Without faith, there is no integrity.A bond of trust is something that develops over time. It is a remarkable part of a relationship based on respecting the strengths and weaknesses of others. However, trust is often lost and when that happens the struggle to regain it begins. Broken trust can hurt. When you tend to trust someone who's your friend and they betray you...what do you do ...Hurt & anguished.. When the betrayal is accompanied with bunch of lies...it makes things worst. Trust is assurance in another that allows one to assume discretion and confidentiality in relationships.William James, the great American philosopher and psychologist once wrote that we have the right to believe and trust, to know with certainty that a person or thing will not fail. When it fails..and trust is broken...we are faced with the ultimate question of whether we will trust the person again...only God knows..

Love can be sordid only if you work at it..

Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don't become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved ones. Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.Life is filled with happiness, sadness, tears, smiles, laughter and other emotions but when life gets you down, just be strong about it and keep your head up high and have faith in all things in life. Always remember: God is at your side, always.

I like tis quote :- One day you will ask me which is more important, you or my life? And I will say my life, and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.

To my mom & sis ,

Your love is a gift that I treasure more with every passing day, As time goes by I find myself discovering more and more reasons to love you. This Valentine's Day, I'm thinking about how wonderful it is to have your love in my life. Thank u for everything. I love you with all my heart. Be blessed ;)

To all the rest out there...may every day be Valentines Day for ya'll ;)

Yes...politics are dirty !

When you mix people and power, you get politics." - Winston Churchill

The recent happenings in malaysia is frustrating me. It makes me sick watching TV3 news. The ought to get their objective reviewed and realize what media really does. Suck ups ! Gosh...what is happening ? No one is bothered about the nation, the people or it's growth. Every politician is looking after their own periuk nasi. So selfish! There can be no doubt about the dirtiness of our politics.Bottom line is...no matter what the truth of the matter, let us not fool ourselves. People will NEVER believe.

Salju Di Danau Rindu...

Tak pernah ku kesal

Memilih dirimu

Biarpun pudar kelam masa silam

Bagiku kasih sayang satu anugerah

Tak ternilai olehku

Benarlah katamu hidup penuh pura

Tetapi tidak pada diri ini

Cintaku tulus suci lahir dari hati

Salju di danau rindu

Mengapakah sukar menyakinkan cinta

Yang terbiar layu disirami duka

Sedangkan diriku umpama pengemis

Mengharap kasihmu itu

Izinkanlah aku menyintaimu

Dan sesungguhnya cintaku satu...

~Mamat-Exist~

No reason..i just liked the lyric..and the song...

F.R.I.E.N.D - This is for - (You know who you are..)

I am writting this about a friend. Someone , in just a short time became so close. It felt like we knew each other for a life time. I have friends but very few of them are guys and the friends i'm close to only very few (whom i share my secrets with.) I'd be there for them. Like Jacques Delille said "Fate chooses your relations, you choose your friends". I've learned that there are many good friends around, but true best friends are hard to come by. Being hurt continiously, I am very careful with frienship terms & conditions.

4-5 years we've been friends...i've come to learn a lot abt my friend. I may not be perfect yet my friend accepts me for who i am. I appreciate that. I would also thank my friend for letting me experience some things I've never had the chance to know. I once went out with my friend. Having dinner at BB and walking around BB (KL) was an unforgettable experience for me. For some...it might be something normal...for me it turned out to be cherished moment. I got to see KL at night in the company of a nice friend. I felt safe. Besides that, we share experiences and encounters. I love listening to my friend's stories and sit anxiously waiting for more new stories..We seldom...seldom meet or cal each other ..we sometimes exchage text messages... but i know my friend is there for me. I appreciate my friend and thru this post i wish my friend realize how much our friendship mean to me. Hope we can be friends forever....

This is for you ... THANK YOU !

You may meet a person and instantly know that you will be best friends forever. In some friendships you may feel a sense of equality. There are no rules about how a friendship has to be. All friendships are unique and special in their own way. Each one is valuable. Roads in life are often twisted, Strewn with damaged dreams and hopes. Often, all that is left is empty space, With little direction, few ways to cope. In the darkness, in the silence, Only faint memories of joy are heard. Overrun by difficulties and stresses, We strain to understand a single word. It is in those times, when faith is fading, When no questions of life make sense, The truth of friendship calls our name, Says what seems broken only has dents. Out of the silence, the night so dark, Growing from dim to almost sunlight. We see other faces, they are all around us, Lending their strength to increase our might. Now we're stronger, no longer silent, Our voices are a chorus; hope is on the mend. Blessings abound because we are surrounded, By great men we have the honor to call friend.