Sunday, December 19, 2010

to let go...


Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.--Anon

Letting go is one of the hardest lessons in life. Recently i had an encounter with a long lost friend. Someone i was not close with but after the meeting we became somewhat close friends. I learned a lot from this friend in the short span time. And... I am still learning. We shared many insights especially on life... and one of the best advice i got was to relax and take life as it comes...
Being thru pain and several downfall in life... i have managed to get up and face everything thrown at me. No matter how hard it was i managed. Maybe with God's grace. The thing is sometimes we get tired of being put to test hoping for it to end. Emotional exhaustion cause such an heartache. You can be as strong as a granite only to realize that your heart is not that strong... yeah, we are not robots for goodness sake.. just an imperfect human being...living a decent life. I am thankful to God for being my side to give me the support i need in the form of my family & some trusted friends...
I just dun get it...why can't any lovers just end a relationship properly without walking out on their partners without an explanation. This happened to several of my friends. All i say to them is..let go..move on...like Dr. Phil said "Does he really even make you happy? Be honest with yourself about the extent to which he's really meeting your needs. Chances are you're longing for the relationship that you wish it could be, and that you want to be in love with the person you wish he was. Dr. Phil reminds a guest: "There are times when you break up with somebody and you start missing them and you start thinking about all the good things. And then you're back with them for about 10 minutes and you go 'Oh yeah! Now I remember why I hate you!'" Don't kid yourself about what it was really like or glorify the past.
Ask yourself: Are you hiding in the relationship so you don't have to face the reality of being on your own? Don't stay with someone because it's comfortable and safe. It may seem more secure, but it's not healthy for you and it certainly won't help you get to a better place. Why would you want to settle and waste your life away just to avoid getting back in the game? This is true...and sadly many of us tend to do it...
Being hurt in love...we are afraid to trust and to love again. It's normal...But then don't hold all men / women responsible for the mistake your ex made. Why should they pay for the sins of someone else who may have wronged you? Learn to trust again — by trusting yourself. Trust is not about how much you trust one person or another to do right or wrong. How much you trust another person is a function of how much you trust yourself to be strong enough to deal with their imperfections." Have enough faith in yourself to be able to put yourself on the line with someone, without any guarantee of what will happen next. If you're playing the game with sweaty palms, it's because you're afraid of what you can or can't do, or dealing with your own imperfections — it's not about the other person.
Don't invest more than you can afford to lose. While it's important to move forward, you need to take things one step at a time. Focus on yourself. Some of us feel comfortable being alone (we have our reasons) and some are strong enough to look for love.. Whatever the decision may be.... 'may the force be with you' (a phrase my friend always text me).
Relax friends ; )
psssttt....dedicated to a certain Prince Caspian ; )

Friday, November 19, 2010


If a girl ever says "I'm Fine".. hold her and say "You're not.. I love you enough to know you're not fine.".. Don't stand there and watch her kill herself with tears....

Monday, November 15, 2010

Impossible ...

I remember years ago
Someone told me
I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear I know, I know
And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them
Shontelle: Impossible

i could really use a wish right now....


Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
(wish right now, wish right now)


I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when youre staring at that phone in your lap


And you hoping but them people never call you back
But thats just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin what would you wish for


If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I'm late
Im on my way so dont close that gate
If I dont make that then Ill switch my flight
And Ill be right back at it by the end of the night

(B.o.B - Airplanes feat. Hayley Williams)

Tuesday, November 09, 2010


Your callin me more than ever now that were done
Two keys back to my place,
we were havin no fun
But your not ok, telling me you miss my face

I remember when you would say you hate my waist
I said im not coming back, its it
You fooled me once but you can’t have that ego turning
Just to bad for you, that when you had me
Didn’t know what to do, shes over you


Cause you had a good girl, good girl, girl
That’s a keeper, k-k-k-k-keeper
You had a good girl, good girl but
Didnt know how to treat her, t-t-t-t-treat her (treat her)

So silly boy get out my face (my face)
Why do you like the way regrets taste?
So silly boy get out my hair my hair(get outta here)
No, I don’t want you no more (get outta here)


Silly boy (silly boy)
Why you acting silly boy?
Silly boy boy (boyboy)
Acting acting silly boy?

You comin with those corny lines
Can’t live without meI’ll get some flowers for the day that you are buried
No, people make mistakes
But I just think your ass is fake
Only thing I want from you, is for you to (stay away)


I said im not coming back, its it
You fooled me once but you can’t have that ego turning
Just to bad for you, that when you had me
Didn’t know what to do, shes over you

Saturday, October 23, 2010

b.r.o.k.e.n

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...Anymore...
~Kelly C~

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Love The Way You Lie...


I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipeI can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie....
~RiRi & Eminem~

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard..

When people share experiences together, and then they must part, there is a feeling of sadness. Saying goodbye to people that we feel connected to is an occasion of somber reflection. It is hard to imagine our lives without them, and yet we have no choice but to go on. It is comforting to know that for however long you will be separated you will always be in each others hearts. It is also an opportunity to be more present to others in your life and to look for opportunities to form new friendships.
~Silence~

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...PA. i MISS U sooo mUCH... :'(

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Sometimes it is so tiring being alone and taking care of myself...i just wish i could find someone caring enough to take care of me for a change ~ Evanatasha


Sometimes when I’m alone I cry,
Cause I am on my own
The tears I cry are bitter and warm,
They flow with life but take no form
I cry because my heart is torn
I find it difficult to carry on
If I had an ear to confide in
I would cry among my treasured friend
But who do u know who stops that long
To help another carry on
The world moves fast and it would rather pass
Then stop and see what makes me cry
So painful and sad
I Cry And No Ones Cares About Why...

-2paC ShAkuR-
“God
When I was alone, and had nothing
I asked for a friend to help me bear the pain
No one came, except God

When I needed a breath to rise, from my sleep
No one could help me.. except God
When all I saw was sadness, and I needed answers
No one heard me, except God

So when I'm asked.. who I give my unconditional love to?
I look for no other name, except God”

~Tupac Shakur~

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

"Dentro de mí hay una luz, ateniendo por anos de dolor; por los inviernos más fríos y las noches más oscuras, pero todavía esa luz ha logrado ser aun más brillante tras los años; y allí se queda, dentro de mí."

Translation:

"Inside of me there is a light, holding many years of pain; by cold winters and dark nights, but still this light has managed to be brighter after years; and there remains inside of me"

Courtesy of : http://kissedmeintherainbytheruevoltaire.blogspot.com/ (thank you zealousy)

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Sometimes I get so used to wearing a mask and faking a smile that I learnt to endure any pain that came along the way. Sometimes you do take the chance, only to be betrayed, by your own fears...only to lose the one true love of your life. The masks which we wear conceal our pain, I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering ….I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes.

Someone wise said “Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about. Sometimes being in love can be harder on your heart and soul than being alone. Memories are the treasures that we keep locked deep within the storehouse of our souls, to keep our hearts warm when we are lonely. I've learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.” It's weird...you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just for one more second...just so it can hurt a little more. A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let goLove that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest

When all is said and done, you are part of me. That's the way it was meant to be. People are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason. I believe the reason that you and me were brought together was because we complete one another. We fill in each other's missing spots with love. And if someday God decides to tear us apart, I trust that there is a reason. Cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it.

Sunday, March 07, 2010


You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

Saturday, March 06, 2010

nae mam eun a jik do geu ja ri e


Even if my heart cries,
I can't go with my clumsy self.
When the scent of a lovely flower lingers,
and the birds' song is silenced,
is this all a vanishing dream?

The moon is crying sadly,
The moon is smiling sadly,
Like your two teary eyes,
Like my withering dreams.
The wind is blowing,
the wind blows together
Even when the lovely flowers wilt and becomes stars

My heart is still by your side.
The person who left behind pain
My foolishness bring me to tears
Like yesterday's radiant sun
and your brilliant smile,
is it all just a dream
that's buried in the winter's sorrows?

The moon is crying sadly,
the moon is smiling sadly,
Like your two teary eyes,
Like my withering dreams.

The wind is blowing,
the wind blows together
Even when the lovely flowers wilt and becomes stars

My heart is still by your side.

b.a.t.t.l.e.f.i.e.l.d

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield
One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now
Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it nowI never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like
Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
I guess you better go and get your armor
We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like
A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor
~Jordin Sparks~