there's a song by Green Day - 'wake me p when september ends'. if only ....i don't know about anyone else...but september is a month of pain for me. the month i lost my dad two years ago. how time passes...it's been two years now.
i received a letter from my sister today... she wrote something on the envelope that instantly reminded me of my dad. my heart just ached.the pain...i can't describe. maybe becos i was close to dad. she wrote 'terima kasih, posmen'. dad always asked us to write that whenever we send letters or cards to anyone. he says the postman helps us deliver the letter and the least we can do is thank him.
you might noticed most of my entry in this blog discusing about how i am dealing with life. my dad...i love my dad very much. too much. losing him was unimaginable but i had to accept the fact. my dad...i learned a lot from him. i am really fortunate to tell you. i had the most wonderful dad & have the most loving mom anyone can ask for. i know..like me...there's plenty out there...but i can't stop thanking God..
“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”
I love you dad...and i miss you soooo much...
