a tribute to my dad

It's been 8 years dad passed...and it is still hard for me to accept the fact. I dun need his birthdays & father's day to reminisce about him....but these are the extra special days when we really miss dad. It hurts everytime and breaks my heart. So...here's to dad...Happy Father's Day pa...

Life Lessons

You may have thought I didn't see,

Or that I hadn't heard,

Life lessons that you taught to me,

But I got every word.

Perhaps you thought I missed it all,

And that we'd grow apart,

But Dad, I picked up everything,

It's written on my heart.

Without you, Dad, I wouldn't be

The person I am today;

You built a strong foundation

No one can take away.

I've grown up with your values,

And I'm very glad I did;

So here's to you, dear father,

From your forever grateful kid.

 

 

(Courtesy of Joanna Fuchs)

Carpe Diem !

My recent posts talked a lot about values of friendship. Things happen in life for a reason. I know -sometimes it is  hard to accept the reality...but life goes on. Constant regrets and the feeling "if only I could turn back time" remains cluttering our mind & heart. The ones is my mind is - I should've been more careful! Cos only as time passess you will eventually come to know about people.

Now, I would like to move on... If  there's a devise I can use to erase everything - that would be great ! Unfortunately - none. Sigh ! nevermind. I have a lot more in life to ponder about than some people who is not worth my time.

hating someone is not good, i know. No matter how despise, angry or frustrated I am with someone. People will be people. I know I've done my part as a friend. The more i hold onto this pent up rage, the worse for me. I need to let peoples actions and words roll off of my back. Realize that they don't matter in my life and focus on the good things in life. True... i have some great things in life I cherish. Moving forward, I should blog about something else that matters.

God - Forgive me, bless me and please avoid me meeting this person ever!

Gotta go...time to change !

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 
Marilyn Monroe

LONG LIVE MARILYN !

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shhhh...

 

~The End~

Enough Is Enough !

u know how sometimes people tend to screw your day or your mood without even being present there...well, it has been happening to me lately.

what makes me smile is...when people say they understand & love you as a close friend,only to throw words that don't even justify the so-called-friendship. my late father always reminded his daughters- be careful with what you say to others, because it is difficult retract words. think before you say anything.

it is so easy for someone to accuse you of  belittling them, being coward and so on. it hurts when this someone claims you are their close friend. well, news flash, it does not seem so. i am a firm believer that in friendship you don't judge. you accept them as who they are.

i dun tell my friends how to act in any situation. as a friend, i will be there, i listen, i advice, i share, i feel but never judge. how you react to smthg or what you decide, is solely your choice. as a friend i can learn to adapt or understand but not accuse just because it is done not according to my rule. Well, that's me.

Why is being silent so wrong ? How sure are you talking or arguing will not make thing worst ? Sometimes people resort being silent to avoid confrontation or arguements. just let them be. Praise david tyson who said "True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable". obviously none here.

Fine, once confronted and things are going well.. who screws it up again. For the first time, i am being called lame & hiding behind my work. Mind you - it's from the same person who 'loves' me as a friend. Like I said...I will not judge. The moment this 'friend' listed all my flaws, i understood clearly. i am no prime minister or the secretary general but does that make my life or job less important. well it was my mistake because i tot u'd understand as my friend...my bad. bottom line, i dun have to justify to those who dun even care to understand. what hurt the most was when someone without properly asking you lash out at you with sentences like "you think we are a phone company"? seriously ?? you ? my close friend ? yeah rite !

we have a tendency to think that our way of seeing the world is accurate or ‘correct.’ However, there are many different types of people, all with a different way of seeing things.Sometimes you are going to meet individuals with a very different way of looking at things, so much so, perhaps, that you can hardly agree about anything at all. The key here is to genuinely try to put yourself in the other person’s position and try to see the world as he does.

fine with me..as long as i have conscience & i know that i have treated them right. only God knows. i dun know about others but let me make it clear here - i am not showing off or hiding behind my blog posts. what i say reflect what i am. i've had enough...find a friend that suits your standards. God bless! Adios ! Period !

sigh

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude.

It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

*sigh*

Who you are - JJ

I stare at my reflection in the mirror
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
No, no, no, no, no

Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
Just be true to who you are

Who you are, who you are, who you are
Who you are, who you are, who you are
Who you are, who you are, who you are

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah
The more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no
Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

But tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
There's nothing wrong with who you are

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like boom
Just go and leave me alone
Real talk, real life, good luck, good night
With a smile, that's my home, that's my home, no
No, no, no, no, no

Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
Just be true to who you are
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Saying nothing...sometimes says the most

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.There are times when silence has the loudest voice...

I never set standards for my friends. They are who they are. I dun expect them to be like me. They are who they are and I am who I am. When you happen to meet a friend who shares your ups and downs, thru good and bad then you're considered lucky. I think it is easy being a friend (for me at least) because all you have to do is be yourself.

Recently I learned a lesson. Being close friends all I expected was a friend to whom I can pour my heart to. Someone who will hear me out. Well, foolish of me to think so...  Work is work, friend is friend ! Well...like I said...I learned my lesson. One day you think you found a person who knows you so well, and the next you get snapped.. and I realize there always exist that thin line. Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever...Even if I try, I don't think I can ever share or be the person I used be.

Me being me...I have this bad habit. When smthg hurts me, I resolve into being silent in my own world. Even now, I think it is best I live in a world of my own. I don't blame anyone...I am sorry if this hurts them. It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not..

it is true...saying nothing...sometimes says the most :)

....

Selfish persons are incapable of loving others, but they are not capable of loving themselves either.

-Erich Fromm

Is there ever a time to say, "Enough! No more Ms. Nice"

Ever had a situation where you are being neglectful to yourself (or your family) by tending to the whims of fussy and selfish person?

We define a nice person as someone who cares about others and is sensitive to their feelings. Sometimes we are brought up in such a way. We've all met these sorts of individuals in our lifetime. Some are (rarely)selfless, seeing beyond their own wishes and putting the needs of others before their own... and some selfish hardcore creatures.

Being brought up by such wonderful parents, I am one of those who grew up putting the needs of others before my own. I trained myself to put myself if the shoes of others and along the way i realized it caused me more hurt than contentment.

Many times I was told un-nice behaviour is the best response. Like the saying "with a sly person, be sly. It angers me seeing people who can't see beyond the little circle of their ego, resulting me to question myself if being nice the correct approach or will a more stern method ultimately achieve more greater good?

How do you draw the line?

Maybe the answer lies in evaluating our motives.

Asking, why be nice? Is it the right way to approach life? Or just for the sake of being thought of as a nice person? Perhaps the key is developing an inner strength.

Some of the most self-centered people look strong on the outside, but are weak within, completely incapable of overcoming their personal biases and whims. While some of the nicest, kindest people may seem weak on the outside but have the steely determination within—to do the right thing. Whether that means saying an accommodating, sweet "yes" (in most cases) or an unkind, stiff "no." Not because they are affected by how others will view them. But by how their Creator does.

I prefer the latter.

What do YOU think? When is it time to stop being nice?

remembering appa...

Feb 24th - every year we used to celebrate appa's b-day..till we lost him forever in 2004. It still hurts. They say memories are golden, well maybe that is true. I never wanted memories, I only wanted YOU. A million times I've needed you, a million times I've cried. If love alone would of saved you, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still. In my heart you hold a piece, that no one could ever fill. Remembering you is easy Dad, I do it every day...and missing you is something that will never go away. You will never be forgotten, A hallow place in my heart is where you will always stay. I love you pa...& I miss you more each day.

A beautiful memory, dearer than gold,
Of a father whose worth can never be told,
There's a place in my heart no one can fill,
I miss you, Dad, and always will.

His nature was loving and giving,
His heart was made of pure gold,
And to us who truly love him,
His memory will never grow old

 We have lost. Heaven has gained,
The most wonderful Dad this world contained,
There's just one thing makes me glad,
God chose you to be my Dad....

We miss his smile, his kindly ways,
With him we spent all happy days;
On him we always could depend.
If only he were here today
Then this to him we could say,
God bless you, Dad, on your birthday.

Missing you pa....always & forever...

As I Walk Through Life...

I've learned-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-
that you should always leave
loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned-
that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I've learned-
that either you control your
attitude or it controls you.

I've learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned-
that my friends and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry
I have the right to be
angry, but that doesn't give me
the right to be cruel.

I've learned-
that just because someone doesn't love you the
way you want them to doesn't mean they
don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once
in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to
be forgiven by others,
Sometimes you have to learn
to forgive yourself.

I've learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn't
mean they don't love each other.

I've learned-
that two people can look at
the exact same thing
and see something totally different.


Emily Adams