Saturday, March 06, 2010

nae mam eun a jik do geu ja ri e


Even if my heart cries,
I can't go with my clumsy self.
When the scent of a lovely flower lingers,
and the birds' song is silenced,
is this all a vanishing dream?

The moon is crying sadly,
The moon is smiling sadly,
Like your two teary eyes,
Like my withering dreams.
The wind is blowing,
the wind blows together
Even when the lovely flowers wilt and becomes stars

My heart is still by your side.
The person who left behind pain
My foolishness bring me to tears
Like yesterday's radiant sun
and your brilliant smile,
is it all just a dream
that's buried in the winter's sorrows?

The moon is crying sadly,
the moon is smiling sadly,
Like your two teary eyes,
Like my withering dreams.

The wind is blowing,
the wind blows together
Even when the lovely flowers wilt and becomes stars

My heart is still by your side.

b.a.t.t.l.e.f.i.e.l.d

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield
One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down?
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now
Both hands, tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it nowI never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like
Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose
What we had, oh no
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield?
I guess you better go and get your armor
We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
'Cause baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like
A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield
A battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor
~Jordin Sparks~

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Happy ~ Leona Lewis


Someone once told me
That you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything


Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
Cause love wont set you free


I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy but safe as could be


So what if it hurts me
So what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about other pain in front of me
Cause I’m just tryna be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah


Holding on tightly
Just can’t let it go
Just tryna play my roll
Slowly disappear, oooh
Well all these tears
They feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names

Get me outta here
Well I can stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by


So any turns that i cant see
I'll count a stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything


Song : Happy
Singer : Leona Lewis

why love at all if it hurts?



Question—what do you do if you found someone way out of your league, different and one of the few guys you had respect for. Someone you laughed with and looked forward to seeing every day. Someone who gave you gave a chance and let down your guard. Then you tend to tricked yourself into having hope, when you so clearly know you shouldn’t have had any. You freak out. You realize how much it was screwing you up and yet you couldn’t do a thing about it. That thing called LOVE.

Here i am talking about love again. Maybe because I’ve dealt with it in virtually every aspect of my life or because the similarities seem to come up in some way or another. All i know right now is that I am still growing since then.
Trying to let everything go and moving on with life, avoiding any brush with the past, avoiding any encounter that would change the way things were. Believing that it’s time to move on and not get entangled in anything anymore especially love. Then there you were—came out of nowhere, constantly on the mind, it seems, because tiny little things always trigger the memory. Attempts to push it away, instead of dealing with it failed. Anyone can tell what you're feeling. I know things will never be the same between us. Maybe thy should have dealt with it better than I did. But i was also thinking is this God’s way of showing me love exists where you least expect it. I don't know what goes further than here yet i know there is no possible future in it.

What does love mean ? Just a companion or something unexplainable ? Even being in a love, doesn't mean it's wrong to love. Loving is a process like growing up, it progresses. We grow up understanding more and being more arouse with surroundings. As we grow older, love becomes more cliche and takes the form of simply almost anything - from holding hands to kissing to sexual.Love also hurts because it can't always just be love, other things get involved. When you're in love you become vulnerable and you let yourself trust that other person, when you are exposed you are hurt more easily. You are scared to lose what means most to you, and if you do ever lose it you lose a part of yourself with it. Not only that but you are afraid to hurt the ones you love, their pain is yours and when you're the one who has caused it is far worse. Guilt eats you up.


So..again, the choice is always yours to make. To love or not to love. It is hard when you know that there is no future for you with the man you love. But then again...who am i to decide. Fate is not for me to determine but God. As much as it hurts...dun give up if you really love the person. Because the most difficult thing to explain in life is the simplest truth called love.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

The Symbol of Love & Devotion


I will forever wear this ring as a sign of my commitment and the desire of my heart”
If Mangalsutra (Thaali or Thirumangalyam), 'the sacred marriage-time pendant’ symbolizes a married woman, a ring worn by a man is a visible sign of the vows that he is belong to someone and that someone belongs to him.Ring exchanging ceremony is an important celebration affair and it holds a lot of meaning in the Indian wedding traditions. This is a symbolic acceptance of the relationship between a woman and a man to validate the wedding vow.
According to the ancient Indian epic, Ramayana, it describes a love story between Rama, an ancient King, and Sita, who is abducted by Ravana, the King of Ceylon. The ring of Rama is the most precious evidence for Sita given to Hanuman by Rama and has a great importance in the course of Ramayana. This indicates the ancient Indian custom of exchanging rings in marriage. This is the ring prepared by Sita in her kingdom Mithila and she herself put it on Rama’s finger during their marriage. When Hanuman gives this ring to Sita, she saw Rama in that ring and bathed the ring with her tears, kissed the ring, feeling Rama in it, and entered into higher states of consciousness.Though Hanuman offered to Sita that he could carry Sita over his shoulders and takes her to Rama, however, Sita refuses, “My son, you are a brahmachari and I am pativrata, who has taken the vow not to touch any man other than my Lord, Rama; therefore, I will wait until Sri Rama comes and destroys the demon. Will you kindly convey my heart’s of love that I do not think or dream of any other than Rama”.
This signifies the importance of exchanging rings as a token of love and devotion between the couple. Circle in its nature, the ring has no beginning and no ending, which symbolizes the love between them, will never deteriorate. Traditionally, the rings are made of gold in order to represent a long married life; since it is long-lasting and unaffected by the passage of time, it is considered a suitable material for everyday wear as well as a metaphor for the relationship. It is believed that the ring finger of the hand has a vein leading directly to the heart. Therefore the groom wears the ring on his ring finger of his right hand and the bride wears hers on the ring finger of her left hand in order to form a complete heart. Traditionally, most Malaysian Indian couples emphasize the important of engagement that takes place before the wedding. The families ask the gods for blessings, the groom's family welcomes the bride into the family; rings and garlands are exchanged between the couple to welcome each other into their lives. The groom's family gives a verbal promise of marriage and feeds crystalline sugar to the girl's family to confirm engagement. It also represents a formal agreement to future marriage.
Although memories last a lifetime, photographs are the only true way to look back and reflect on your engagement day. When the bride looks at that photograph in her album she will be thrilled back in time to that intense personal connection of her wedding ring that is slipped on her finger by her beloved fiancé.
MyFoto Studio always looks into the lavish detail plus the vibrant and harmony colors that all together produce a spectacular photo where art and reality coincide.Our experienced professional photographers take each and every engagement assignment close to heart and make effort to capture the anticipatable moments during the ring exchanging ceremony. We believe, by doing so, we will ensure that we are standing in the right place, at the right time to get the right shot.We capture the timeless moments - not just the scene but the love, the happiness and the emotion.
Sincerely,
Deepak K Menon
Playmaker, Attacking Midfielder
MyFoto Studio
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*thank you...Mr Deepak for an insightful article...much appreciated !

Saturday, November 07, 2009

why....


Victor M. Garcia Jr. once said love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts.

So...came the question to me...why we love that someone so much even it hurts and why are we willing to love when we know for real that it's gonna crush us into pieces.Why do we invest emotion if we just get hurt in end? For me, because that's what love or relationship is all about. You give and you take or better yet, you give without expecting anything in return. Somehow, it all comes back to you when you least expect it. I'm not a martyr, but i'd rather be the one getting hurt than hurting other people.

In real life - no one is perfect. We have our flaws. Patience, tolerance, understanding = Love. Now people...love is not just about feeling happy to ourselves. It also about giving with all your heart. Symphaty, kindness - that is love too. Making others happy that brings joy into our lives - that is another act of love. Life is not a movie, much to my dismay. You don’t always meet your soul-mate dancing in the rain or on the observation deck of the Empire State Building.Sometimes it’s hard to love someone because you’re so afraid of losing them.

Some people struggle their entire lives with, being in love with someone you cant seem to be with. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing, you feel as though this life is worth living. And when you lose it, its unreal. Its a pain i cant describe. Every muscle in the body tenses and the heart pounds so hard it feels like it will kill us. The thing you learn the most is that this pain proves that the heart and felt a happiness i may never feel again.You now know from the suffering that the time period in which it did feel this happiness was worth it. It's a feeling you wouldnt trade for anything.

So...you see there is no real conclusion to this, because it's undescribable. I do know, that the pain ...the feeling of hopelessness only shows that you fell in love. And every ounce of faith in you, is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness. You will always have hope.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

-Bob Marley

I realised that I love you. And you said you love me, and you cannot promise we will be forever but you can promise not to hurt me. I believed you. I still didn't realize how I'd come to love you, how you came to find the key to my heart.Now I know. You didn't find the key. You broke into my heart, and I let you.
Just don't break my heart.

Thursday, November 05, 2009


I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It's not a box that holds you in. I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's). I love you. It's not to make you change. I love you. It's not even to make you love me. I love you. It's as pure and simple as that.

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.

~Mother Teresa~

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

t.a.t.t.o.o

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later,
I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you

I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do ohhhhh
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

~JorDiN SpaRks~

Thursday, October 29, 2009

~just~

Love's really full of inconsistencies
We get hurt yet there are things we miss
It makes us happy but also makes us cry
It's a reason to live yet a reason to die

Sometimes it's true but sometimes full of lies
There's trust but we still ask questions with WHYs
We want to forget but still we remember
We want to close our doors but here comes another

We say we're strong though we feel weak
We say we're fine but hey! we look sick
In every teardrop there comes a smile
Forgetting the heartache even just for a while

Sometimes we dream just to be with the person we love
We oftenly say that they're the only things we have
They serve as the world we consider a paradise
They're making us feel the intimacy not seen by the eyes

Lies and denials, sorrows and pain
Aside from the sweetness underneath the falling rain
Broken hearts, teardrops and shattered dreams
Upon reading between your lies, these are the hidden scenes....

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Monday, September 14, 2009

September...

It's September. The month. It has been 5 years dad passed. If you ask me if i could finally accept the fact...my answer stays the same. I know he's not here wit us but getting over and accepting the fact is still not something i am capable of doing. I know he'll always be apart of me...but it hurts everytime i think he's gone. It'll be like we went for awhile without seeing each other. Recently we faced another bad news in my family...and with much courage and strength we fought it & overcame all obstacles. With God's blessing...everything is well now. Now..thinking about it...i felt we were blessed.I believe if we have the faith and confident...we can overcome anything - also with the support of our loved ones. Mom - u showed me the meaning of strength. Sis...the epitome of patience and my confidence.
Never Forgotten
Always Loved
I miss you Dad...
Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately,
love truly laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful